So in lieu of finding out that I have PMDD I decided to just kind of explain what it is and what I deal with it and hopefully I can find something to help me deal with it.
So PMDD is basically PMS x 10,000,000. Now with me because I also have PCOS which is a hormonal imbalance my PMDD is a lot worse than other people.
My symptoms include depression that causes me to have bouts of crying and feeling hopeless, feeling like nothing’s right in my life and I don’t see the point on why I should keep going.
I’m irritable about basically everything, and I don’t want to be bothered by anyone. If I do have to be around someone I tend to start fights with them during this time.
I wake up feeling like there is a cloud over my head and it just becomes a snowball effect that the feeling just keeps getting worse throughout the day until I completely go off the hinge and just start crying and yelling at everybody and screaming.
Other symptoms include feeling extremely sensitive.. Like for me I would get upset over the smallest things like if someone was just messing with me or making fun of me in a joking way on normal days I would laugh it off but on these days it would really hurt my feelings.
If I’m talking and it feels like you’re not listening it really take that seriously and it hurts my feelings during this time. I’m also really sensitive to criticism and rejection. Someone can tell me that my hair looks messed up or I’m breaking out a lot or ive gained weight and I will take it completely personal to the point that I’m over analyzing why they told me that and questioning if they’re actually my friend or if they actually care about me.
I also get insomnia so most of the time at night I cannot sleep and by the time I do sleep I end up sleeping for like 10 to 12 hours and then I don’t want to get up for the rest of the day. It almost feels like I’m sick all the time during my PMDD.
I also tend to get really bad cravings during this time we’re all I want is cake McDonalds soda all the things that I really can’t eat because they make my mood even worse that’s all I want to eat and because I don’t let myself eat it most of the time I end up starving myself throughout the day because nothing else sounds good.
The past few years I’ve actually been getting panic attacks and really bad anxiety. I feel like I’m out of control and I have no control over what’s happening in my life.
I lose all motivation. I can’t cook, clean, do homework, all I want to do is lie around in bed or on the couch. I can’t focus on anything.
Its a lot to deal with and what sucks is for me it literally lost like 15 out of 30 days of the month. It may not stay all 15 days like maybe for 3 days I’ll have it and then for 1 day it’ll go away, then the next 2 days I’ll have it, and then 2 days it will go away again and come back again, etc.
I have found that if I change my diet and focus on vegetables and fruits and if I exercise more that can help. It also says to look for things that can boost my serotonin so I’m really trying to find whatever I can that is natural to help me because I don’t want to get medication for it.
I’ve noticed that there is a chemical in midol that completely calms me down but I can’t take midol for the rest of my life without it having affect on my body. The reason I’m feeling so glad I found this information is because I’ve lost a lot of friendships over this and I’ve quit jobs because of this and I always thought it was the other peoples fault because I never understood why I couldn’t get along with anyone during this time and why I felt the way I felt. I also found that taking Omega 3 pills helps and today that did help me because I was in a good mood all day. God is with me and I know that with him I will get through this.. I’m just so glad I understand why I get like this.